oh yeah it's that nano thing again.

[be_themoon]

oh hai guiz.

so, yeah, this is the obligatory 'IT'S NOVEMBER' post in which I tell you things you already know. like the fact that I'm crazy and am doing NaNoWriMo again this year and so will be extremely busy and will probably miss half your posts and/or forget to comment on them. sorry! I'll probably emerge from my cave in December, at which point I'm really hoping I'll not only have finished NaNo but three of my classes and the crossover exchange. so yeah.

in World View class on Friday, depression came up. I wanted so badly to be able to talk coherently about it and explain some things, because one of the girls was being an idiot about it, but my brain was too busy completely freaking to handle talking about it beyond telling her quietly "You are not qualified to deal with someone who is suicidally depressive. Make sure they get help." I want so much to be able to talk about these things in RL as well as online, but I just fall to pieces whenever I have to talk about it. I think mostly I was worried if I talked too much about it I would let personal details slip?

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[highlyeccentric.livejournal.com]

*hugs you* Oh, lovely. Sucks when classes throw things like that up at you...

Wish I could help somehow :s I don't even comment much - a lot of the time this year my own crap and/or lucymonster's has been as much as as i can engage with at any given moment. But I read and I... I appreciate your honesty, I suppose? And I have considerable respect for your capacity to pull yourself through again and again. :)

[highlyeccentric.livejournal.com]

On that note, I just had a fiddle with my filters and added you to the personal-crap filter. The number of Highly posts, and the percentage of navel-gazing therein, on your flist will probably go up quite a bit.

I should state here - blanket warning for Consent Issues (TM) on the content of that filter, although not all that often and if ever discussed in detail I put up a cut and clear trigger warnings and so on. Let me know if that's a problem or needs particular caution.

[be-themoon.livejournal.com]

*hugs back* aww, thanks! honesty with my own issues has always been a bit of a problem for me, and I'm trying to get over that. so far online is the only place I can. it really means a lot to me to have my f-list, even when they're busy.

filter-wise, I'm perfectly fine with that! I do not have any real triggers beyond tending to freeze up in RL during the discussion of depression/emotional abuse. thank you for the warning, though! <333

[highlyeccentric.livejournal.com]

*hugs you* That is what the Internet is for (aside from porn. Sometimes at the same time as porn, actually). We look after people whom Real Life forgets!

*tilts head* possibly that warning should've been an emotional abuse warning, actually, with some mild consent issues as a side. It is not something I've been talking about much for the last month, and I plan to keep on talking about More Interesting Things. *fingers crossed*

[sgrio.livejournal.com]

*HUGS*

[be-themoon.livejournal.com]

*hugs back* thank you!

[animus-wyrmis.livejournal.com]

I wish I could say something helpful about speaking from experience without, you know, talking about personal stuff, but I don't really have any ideas. Sometimes I've found that looking at something fixed helps me when I talk about things that make me anxious though--it keeps my breathing normal.

Good luck on NaNo! Hey, what do you think about posting excerpts? It would totally make me more likely to finish...

[be-themoon.livejournal.com]

yeah, that's pretty much what I ended up doing for the rest of the class. I've got to get better at this or I'll have panic attacks every time it comes up in conversation. would be a bit problematic. :P

oh god. if I have anything worth excerpting - so far it's decent stuff but not anything I'd actually want to show to the world. but I would definitely read your excerpts! it would probably take a bit for me to comment though, sorry! but I will be making periodic updates as to word count and progress. probably starting at the end of this week, when things have settled a bit.