"I'm a nurse, you should have told me."

[be_themoon]

RL-wise, I've been in a sort of weird, jittery mood ever since yesterday night, when I accidentally triggered myself for something I'd completely forgotten about. I'm... not really sure I want to talk about it? Nothing happened physically, but it's not a good memory for me. I'd like it to just go away again, please.

I'm also signed up for a Chinese course, and studying for the SAT, which I'm taking in a week. ACK. 

so, Doctor Who 5x09 Cold Blood reaction post.

I don't even know, guys. My head hurts from crying, and I just want Rory back, and god damn you, Moffat. I trusted you! Well, I still do, but in more of a "he'll do a great job but he'll tear my heart out along the way" fashion than before.

I threw a temper tantrum to my mom, to friends on Skype, I stormed at the skies, and the episode STILL DOESN'T END RIGHT.

SHE DOESN'T REMEMBER HIM.

GUYS.

GUYS.

I CANNOT DEAL.

I want to have high hopes for him returning in the finale and everything getting fixed, but. but. what if Arthur saying he was filming the finale was just a CRUEL, EVIL PLOY?

FAIRYTALES HAVE GODDAMN HAPPY ENDINGS, MOFF. KEEP THAT IN MIND.

the acting was fantastic, I have a few quibbles with gender-politics, and the only reason I'm able to summon even that much coherency about the episode is because I have been flailing about it for HOURS now.

SEND HELP. I CAN'T LOOK AT MY ICON LIST WITHOUT CRYING. MY AMY/RORY ONE HAS "DW: Amy/Rory: this is forever" as keywords. I CANNOT DEAL.

*deep breaths* I attempted to self-therapeutize myself through vidding. The result is a 1:22 Rory vid that did absolutely nothing to make me at peace with it. It'll probably be up soon - it's rough, but I didn't make it for perfection. I'm reserving my perfectionist tendences for the Susan Pevensie vid I have been patiently working on for days now. No, it's not done yet. Almost, but I've got to get one last bit adjusted.

I've been planning to do one drabble every day this summer - most of the time I'll probably do round-up posts once a week, but today I'm just going to put it in this post.

just a nurse
Doctor Who. Amy/Rory, 137 words.

He knows he doesn’t even begin to compete with the Doctor. For one, he’s a nurse. For two, his light’s not as big – or – no, he’s definitely not going there. But he’s spent years in love with Amy, and he thinks that’s more than the Doctor can say, and he’s not going to just give up without a fight. It’s just, he’s not very sure how to fight. He’s never been good at fighting, or leading, or keeping Amy safe. Well, the Doctor’s not very good at the last one, either. No one is, really.

It’s like a fairytale here, though, and Amy comes as close as she ever does to saying she loves him, and the Doctor claps, and then they step out on their next adventure, and Rory realizes that it’s quite fun, doing this. 

Comments

[wordsatourbacks]

I'd like it to just go away again, please.

I hope it does! :(

Is the Chinese course through your college?

jesuswasbatman wrote a little episode review that may be relevant to your interests re: Rory. (There is hope?)

Also possibly relevant to your interests: And All Shall Be Well is a 2000-word Amy/Rory (Rory as a trans man, yay!) one-shot I thought was well written. And it has the happy ending I want for them.

[be_themoon]

thanks.

It's through FLVS, an online school in Florida that offers middle and high school courses. :D

THERE HAS TO BE HOPE. *flails* and oooh, that is quite quite good! I like that!

[marycontraire.livejournal.com]

I AM SO UPSET. SO UPSET, BETSY. I JUST WANT HIM BACK. HOW CAN YOU DO THIS TO ME, MOFFAT?

[be-themoon.livejournal.com]

I DON'T KNOW. MARY, I JUST. I TRUSTED HIM. I thought "Moffat won't do anything over-the-top!" and, well, he didn't. BUT HE TORE MY HEART OUT ANYWAYS.

I mean, I sat there swearing at the screen pretty steadily for a few minutes afterwards, and I'd been WARNED by my sister, who'd gotten to it before me and came into my room looking kind of shell-shocked and teary.

[metonomia.livejournal.com]

I AM CRYING AGAIN. And it's actually mostly not to do with Rory, but it also mostly is. My head hurts again, and I think I'm a little dehydrated, and RORY.

They HAVE to bring him back.

And that drabble is beautiful, and I love it, and I love Rory, and I cannot wait to see your Rory vid, and also the final version of your gorgeous Susan vid, and .... RORY.

[be-themoon.livejournal.com]

*flails* I CAN'T EVEN.

[animus-wyrmis.livejournal.com]

::hugs::

[be-themoon.livejournal.com]

<333 :)

[janetlin.livejournal.com]

I'm still kind of in shock, but I really do think they'll bring him back. I mean, it didn't really feel like an ending. Look at the way they built it up when other characters left/died. There was none of that this time. It was just... bam.

So, yes, I'm reasonably sure they'll bring him back at some point. The Doctor was too gleeful about "history can be rewritten" for them not to revisit it. And besides, if they really meant him to stay dead and for it to be a truly gut-wrenching experience, they would have given us a bit longer to really fall in love with him. I mean, I, at least, only just started getting into him and feeling he was part of the team in the last like two or three episodes. And now he's gone? Cheap.

[be-themoon.livejournal.com]

*headdesk* THAT'S why I never see you updating! how did I never get around to adding you? I'm so dumb sometimes. I cannot believe it took me this long to figure that out. :/

Roryyyy! :( I absolutely adore him, but I'm coming more and more to an optimistic Look On Things. Arthur Darvill is credited in the finale - it could be flashbacks, but I'm going to cross my fingers and cautiously put my faith in Moffat.

I have to say though, I liked that it was such a bam - dead thing, because that's more realistic.

he apologized. he APOLOGIZED for dying. I just. well, clearly I am Not Over This At All.

[janetlin.livejournal.com]

It _is_ more realistic, but this is tv, and Doctor Who at that. Since when does realism count for anything? ;)

And aiee, this is why I steer clear of even casting "spoilers." Makes me feel so much smarter when the "I told you so" moment comes. Though in this case I am glad that so far it seems to prove my theory.

Another reason why you don't see me updating is because facebook is such a time-sink. Stupid farmville. Though I've tried to be better about giving LJ more love this past month.

[wingedflight21.livejournal.com]

WAIT - ARTHUR SAID HE WAS FILMING THE FINALE!?!?!?!


...there is hope after all.

[be-themoon.livejournal.com]

heeey there you are! yes, he did at one point, AND he is listened in the cast for the finale. now, of course this COULD be flashbacks, but I'm trying for optimism here.

ALSO OMG. OMG. 35:45-9. there is someone walking behind Amy! WTF IS GOING ON, MOFFAT?