Going South (Renesmee meta in fic form)
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be_themoonTitle: Going South
Characters/Pairings: Renesmee Cullen
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: Violence, death.
When: After Breaking Dawn.
Summary: When she looks in the mirror, her eyes are still brown. She smiles.
Disclaimer: Not mine, thank heavens.
Author's Note: Look, I'm not a fan of Twilight, so this can't actually be called fanfiction, I think. Um. It's more meta on Renesmee, because my first thought on reading BD was "WTF EWWW" and my second thought was "wow, Renesmee is going to be so screwed up." So yeah. Meta. Not fanfic. Also, there was going to be more, but I liked the last sentence too much as an ending. Someday there might be a companion piece to this. The title comes from the last line and also from the phrase 'to go south' which means something like 'to get messed up.' Continued in The One Unchanging Thing Is I. Elaboration of the time Renesmee spent in college is in And All Her Yesterdays.
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The day of her third birthday, she looks like she is eight years old. She can recite soliloquies, passages of famous literature, and due to books Grandfather Carlisle has in his study, the entire Anglican services.
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By the time she turns four, what had been mere parrot-like repetition becomes a thirst for real knowledge, and she doesn't recite anymore, just reads as much as she can, taking notes and ordering textbooks off the internet.
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One morning soon after she turns five, she doesn't get out of bed, just lies there with her fingers against her throat and listens to her pulse beat fast as she grows.
She lies there for a month, her family leaving her alone on Edward's request, and begins to comprehend eternity.
She is not quite so eager about growing after that.
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On her sixth birthday she looks sixteen and feels like she's three. Her clothes are all picked out for her, fancy and perfect, her meals prepared, anything she wants given to her, and she feels smothered.
So she drives into town in her mother's old truck and buys second hand jeans and t-shirts and a pack of red hair dye, which she goes to Charlie's place to use.
"Looks good, kid," he says when she comes down the stairs.
She wants to say thank-you, so she goes fishing with him, bundled up in a windbreaker and one of Charlie's old plaid shirts with her newly red hair whipping in her face. He shakes his head when she offers the windbreaker and shirt back, so she keeps them. The whole truck smells like sunshine and water as she drives.
When she gets home, her mother just shakes her head and looks resigned, and suddenly the whole effort feels like a waste.
"Fish for dinner?" she says into the silence, holding up her catch.
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"I want to go to Harvard," she tells them.
"Plenty of time for that." Her mother looks worried.
"Next year."
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She can take care of herself.
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"My hair's growing too fast," she tells Charlie, holding up a box of bright red hair dye.
"Don't stain the sink," he says, and then as she goes up the stairs, "I'm going fishing tomorrow. Want to come?"
"Yeah.," she says, and smiles at him.
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She makes up a transcript, carefully writing down the grades she got on subjects she taught herself, and when J. J. asks her what name to put on the papers she says, "Mary Blake," without any hesitation.
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She falls in love with Harvard the moment she steps on campus, completely alone. Her family has moved on from Forks, but she said no every time they suggested coming here. Jake had been the most insistent, but she is not in love with him, and besides, Mary Blake does not have a Destiny, or a promise bracelet, or anything binding her to things in the dark but the cell phone in her bag.
She leaves it there and buys a new one - 'hi, this is Mary, leave a message' she says clearly - and when girls and boys ask for her number it is this one she gives out.
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"She'll come back," Esme had said confidently. "We're her family."
Mary isn't so sure.
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At night she walks alone, searching for danger. Her third night, she finds a man hitting a girl.
She slits his throat and drinks him dry.
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When she looks in the mirror, her eyes are still brown. She smiles.
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"I'm going to see the world," she tells her mother, and hangs up before she can hear any more than a faint "Nessie, what?" She is not Renesmee Cullen anymore.
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The bus pulls in.
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She goes south.
Characters/Pairings: Renesmee Cullen
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: Violence, death.
When: After Breaking Dawn.
Summary: When she looks in the mirror, her eyes are still brown. She smiles.
Disclaimer: Not mine, thank heavens.
Author's Note: Look, I'm not a fan of Twilight, so this can't actually be called fanfiction, I think. Um. It's more meta on Renesmee, because my first thought on reading BD was "WTF EWWW" and my second thought was "wow, Renesmee is going to be so screwed up." So yeah. Meta. Not fanfic. Also, there was going to be more, but I liked the last sentence too much as an ending. Someday there might be a companion piece to this. The title comes from the last line and also from the phrase 'to go south' which means something like 'to get messed up.' Continued in The One Unchanging Thing Is I. Elaboration of the time Renesmee spent in college is in And All Her Yesterdays.
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The day of her third birthday, she looks like she is eight years old. She can recite soliloquies, passages of famous literature, and due to books Grandfather Carlisle has in his study, the entire Anglican services.
+
By the time she turns four, what had been mere parrot-like repetition becomes a thirst for real knowledge, and she doesn't recite anymore, just reads as much as she can, taking notes and ordering textbooks off the internet.
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One morning soon after she turns five, she doesn't get out of bed, just lies there with her fingers against her throat and listens to her pulse beat fast as she grows.
She lies there for a month, her family leaving her alone on Edward's request, and begins to comprehend eternity.
She is not quite so eager about growing after that.
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On her sixth birthday she looks sixteen and feels like she's three. Her clothes are all picked out for her, fancy and perfect, her meals prepared, anything she wants given to her, and she feels smothered.
So she drives into town in her mother's old truck and buys second hand jeans and t-shirts and a pack of red hair dye, which she goes to Charlie's place to use.
"Looks good, kid," he says when she comes down the stairs.
She wants to say thank-you, so she goes fishing with him, bundled up in a windbreaker and one of Charlie's old plaid shirts with her newly red hair whipping in her face. He shakes his head when she offers the windbreaker and shirt back, so she keeps them. The whole truck smells like sunshine and water as she drives.
When she gets home, her mother just shakes her head and looks resigned, and suddenly the whole effort feels like a waste.
"Fish for dinner?" she says into the silence, holding up her catch.
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"I want to go to Harvard," she tells them.
"Plenty of time for that." Her mother looks worried.
"Next year."
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She can take care of herself.
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"My hair's growing too fast," she tells Charlie, holding up a box of bright red hair dye.
"Don't stain the sink," he says, and then as she goes up the stairs, "I'm going fishing tomorrow. Want to come?"
"Yeah.," she says, and smiles at him.
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She makes up a transcript, carefully writing down the grades she got on subjects she taught herself, and when J. J. asks her what name to put on the papers she says, "Mary Blake," without any hesitation.
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She falls in love with Harvard the moment she steps on campus, completely alone. Her family has moved on from Forks, but she said no every time they suggested coming here. Jake had been the most insistent, but she is not in love with him, and besides, Mary Blake does not have a Destiny, or a promise bracelet, or anything binding her to things in the dark but the cell phone in her bag.
She leaves it there and buys a new one - 'hi, this is Mary, leave a message' she says clearly - and when girls and boys ask for her number it is this one she gives out.
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"She'll come back," Esme had said confidently. "We're her family."
Mary isn't so sure.
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At night she walks alone, searching for danger. Her third night, she finds a man hitting a girl.
She slits his throat and drinks him dry.
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When she looks in the mirror, her eyes are still brown. She smiles.
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"I'm going to see the world," she tells her mother, and hangs up before she can hear any more than a faint "Nessie, what?" She is not Renesmee Cullen anymore.
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The bus pulls in.
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She goes south.
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Date: 2009-07-20 06:14 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2009-07-20 07:16 pm (UTC)So... not a fan of twilight at all, but this was very very good, Betsy! I *want* to read more about her! I loved the scene with Charlie especially.
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Date: 2009-07-21 01:12 am (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2009-07-20 11:16 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-07-21 01:17 am (UTC)(also, ROFL at your icon. XANDER HEEE!)
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Date: 2009-07-22 12:02 am (UTC)Xander is amazing, and I totally need to rewatch Buffy at some point. I haven't seen it in forever. :(
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Date: 2009-07-20 11:19 pm (UTC)Have you thought about writing more? Does she make friends?
ALSO THANK YOU FOR BREAKING UP THE IMPRINTING THING. I never got to that point in the books but the concept makes me uncomfortable.
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Date: 2009-07-21 01:34 am (UTC)I'm pretty certain there's more to her story - traveling and seeing the world, probably the Volturi, learning everywhere she can, going her own way, dating humans, killing people. "You were wrong," she writes her father. "It doesn't make you as bad as the murderers, to kill them. You were wrong." I'm hoping I'll write some more sometime, because writing this one was a lot of fun.
I KNOW I KNOW OMG THE IMPRINTING. It was so ridiculous! I was like 'HA YEAH RIGHT SHE'S FALLING IN LOVE WITH HIM.' XD
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Date: 2009-07-21 11:45 pm (UTC)OMG OMG WRITE IT.
You gotta feel bad for Jacob, though--it's like he's doomed to these weird romances. Uuugh.
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Date: 2009-07-22 12:01 am (UTC)I do feel bad for Jacob - it's like he just got tossed off onto the nearest special person, which is sad for him.
If I keep writing Renesmee future fic, I'll probably have her meet Jake again sometime. And he'll be able to be happy when he isn't around her. He has a strong will.
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Date: 2009-07-22 12:19 am (UTC)I hope so--it would be nice, actually, if he could find someone else, you know? Someone he wanted to love.
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Date: 2009-07-22 08:04 pm (UTC)I probably won't ever bring it into the fic (although Renesmee might be the sort to ask, hm), but I think he probably finds someone else. XD
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Date: 2009-07-21 12:12 am (UTC)I am SO WITH YOU on needing to change up the Twilight universe. And this is great! even in how messed up she is she is sort of the most normal? What you would totally expect from this sort of situation - a rebellious contrary girl who wants to run away from her family that seems so immobile, and part of this rebellion would totally include her not just ignoring her vampireness.
FISHING :DDDDD I LOVE that she hangs out with Charlie! Aawwwwww charlie is great, he needs some love. And of course she changes her crazy name, and go her for leaving even Jacob because seriously, "that kind of devotion is hard to resist" my ass. dude, rock on!
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Date: 2009-07-21 01:41 am (UTC)I KNOW I KNOW how messed up is the Twilight universe? And she's got the money, she can take care of herself (parts I didn't write: the day Renesmee Cullen transferred 5 million from her account to Mary Blake's and never touched her account again). And at the same time, she's so clueless about stuff! (other parts I didn't write: the first time a guy hit on her. BOY HOWDY, was that interesting. also, the time Jacob came to visit her in Harvard and she KICKED HIS FURRY ASS back to Washington.)
I KNOWWW. He sees vampires and werewolves and is all 'okay, I'm chill with this.' But he totally gets how Renesmee needs distance from them, because he sees his daughter and isn't really sure she understands how to treat her daughter. Learning from bad parenting, he thinks, and teaches Renesmee how to bait a hook. And he understands the feeling of being smothered by too much care. (parts I didn't write: the first time Renesmee cut her hair, so short it didn't touch her shoulders, and Charlie told her it looked fantastic, kid. Alice almost cried when she came home.) Also, JACOB IMPRINTING. Totally part of my 'WTF EWWW' reaction. XD
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Date: 2009-07-21 06:55 am (UTC)Yeah, and Charlie tried but in a sense it was too late to be really close with his daughter, so he can at least spend time with his granddaughter and be here for her how she needs him <333 awwww
the haircut! safdlkfsdklfds Charlie is <3 and oh Alice. she is still one of my favorites in that she thinks Bella and Edward's vamp/no-vamp drama is very silly. but oh Alice. I would imagine they allll smother Renesmee way too much just because she is the baby. Esmee would probably be... wow, yeah.
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Date: 2009-07-21 08:10 pm (UTC)I AM SO SERIOUS
HUGE Jacob character derailment - he goes way south, all douchebaggy and mean and kisses her against her will and tries to blackmail her into choosing him. It was HORRIBLE. D: One thing I will never forgive Meyer for. I KNOW, wouldn't it have been much better if Italy had never happened and the third book was something like 'She Runs With Wolves' and there was never any more?
I love Charlie so much in whatever this 'verse is. SO MUCH. <3333
Alice is pretty much epic awesome, and I think next to Charlie Nessie/Mary's favorite. It's this whole family! Eight vampires who can never have children or change children, and Rosalie wanted a child and Esme tried to kill herself because her kid died, so yeah. Poor Nessie would have been overwhelmed.
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Date: 2009-07-22 08:41 am (UTC)I wrote a fic about how Bella gets a life and is normal again after Twilight, before I read New Moon. It is probably my instinct just to try to fix the twilight-verse. I would like to write "Bella becomes a wolf-girl" or at least I would like to read it. I really really really like werewolves, so much better than vampires; it is inexplicable. I would just so much rather read about them!
I at least hope Alice stays cool. And Carlisle, I like him.
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Date: 2009-07-22 08:09 pm (UTC)(btw, I would so be interested in reading that fic.)
WEREWOLVESSSSS. I have this thing with them too - because eeeee! so awesome! I'm not sure what the draw is about them, but I've always liked them much much more than I like vampires. Vampires done right are creepy and scary or at least partially creepy and werewolves done right are just pure awesome. They make me go squeeeee! Werewolves and Jake = only reason I'm probably watching New Moon.
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Date: 2009-07-23 12:12 am (UTC):D it is right here! and it is so, so not canon in the slightest :))
!! Have you read Blood and Chocolate by Annette Curtis Klause? it is a cool but sad book about a kickass werewolf girl who falls in love with a human boy - which totally flips the normal dynamic of supernatural romance books, by making the female protagonist the powerful beast rather than the weak submissive swept-off-her-feet one, right? And I just picked up a book at the library, Sharp Teeth by Toby Barlow - it's a novel in verse of all things, and it has great quotes in at points!
ex: "Poetry is a way of taking life by the throat." (Robert Frost); "There is no document of civilization that is not at the same time a document of barbarism." (Walter Benjamin"; "His hair was perfect." (Warren Zevon, from that awesome song Werewolves of London)
What werewolf things have you been into? I have to admit I think Remus Lupin was my HP fictional-character-crush so that contributed greatly.
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Date: 2009-07-23 12:47 am (UTC)AND IT IS AWESOME.
I saw the movie with a friend who'd read the book and she was like 'THE BOOK IS SO MUCH BETTER' but I haven't had a chance to read it yet (I... am fairly certain my mother would not approve). *puts Sharp Teeth down on list of books to get* I am really, really looking forward to being able to drive myself and to having a job. *crosses fingers*
Remus Lupin greatly aided my love for werewolves, but I dunno what started it. They've just... they've always been something I like. Werewolves will make me open a book faster than a lot of stuff. My favorite werewolf just about ever - ANGUA of the Watch in the Discworld, a werewolf who joined the police, changes at will but finds it a lot more difficult to remain in human shape during the full moon (there are a lot of jokes about her 'time of month' because it's the full moon, not her period) and is dating the 6' really really nice guy Carrot. She's AWESOME. (also, I need to read Jingo, which I'm fairly certain explores her origins.)
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Date: 2009-07-23 02:51 am (UTC)Discworld! Those are other books that sound fun and that I will probably only be able to read during the summer :D she sounds awesome.
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Date: 2009-07-25 09:10 pm (UTC)Discworld is pretty much AMAZING. <333
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Date: 2009-07-26 06:31 am (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2009-07-21 07:55 pm (UTC)XD It's fine. <333
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Date: 2009-07-21 07:42 pm (UTC)I love how she just drifts away from her family (because honestly, who would really want that "perfect" of a family?).
Great job, bb! ♥
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Date: 2009-07-21 08:06 pm (UTC)Oooh, you said it perfectly! She just drifts away - severes the ties and moves.
Thank you! I'm glad you liked it.
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Date: 2009-07-22 04:07 am (UTC)Saving this and reading the next fic.
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Date: 2009-07-22 08:10 pm (UTC)I guess it's fairly obvious from the stories, but I can't imagine Renesmee anything but at least a little messed up.
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Date: 2009-08-04 04:06 am (UTC)I like how you made Renesmee or Mary independant, and... I don't know words for it, but I love the new Renesmee.
Do you have more???
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Date: 2009-08-04 09:31 pm (UTC)I would say yes, but I can see that you have already found it! XD
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