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Nov. 5th, 2011 11:17 pm
be_themoon: I want a better world. By me. (Authority: text: bugger this)
 I will feel better when the stats stop telling me I'll finish on Dec. 15th. Which they won't stop telling me until it's not true anymore. Which means I have to write... two thousand something words? Which I won't accomplish tonight. But if I make word count tonight, I'll only have like - 2500 words to write tomorrow!

I am finally achieving some sort of breakthrough, which is good, because if I don't have any inspiration for NaNo but have loads for my RP characters, guess who gets written and who doesn't? 


p.s. oh my god I have to catch up so I can start writing college application essays I hate those things. also I need to write and ask for recommendations. also one of our hostel girls came home from a party drunk tonight. thank goodness I wasn't on duty. (instead I am on tomorrow. and don't even get the hour more sleep in of the weekend because some girls have to be let out early. and I worked like three extra hours Friday. I'm being cranky ignore me.)

so! NANOING FLIST, how's your novels going?

REST OF FLIST, how's life? I.. haven't checked anything in like three days now. Oops.

will be posting this on Tumblr too feel free to ignore it.
be_themoon: I want a better world. By me. (DC: Batgirl: smile and dodge)

1) NaNoWriMo with a 70,000 word goal. (LADY SUPERHEROES.)
2) reapplying to UofC if I get up the courage to ask for new recommendation letters. :/
3) RPing with my most lovely Maxine Gibson and Alex Rider! SO MANY FEELINGS. 
4) Still watching too much TV. Especially TV that involves superheroes. Especially tiny teenage superheroes who just want to snark in peace.
5) Working. As normal. 
6) Trying to make sure two of my hostel girls remain okay. One of them has some sort of long-term illness that she has never gotten addressed and the other is almost constantly on the verge of a psychological meltdown and her parents are not helping.


GOOD NIGHT. NaNo starts in an hour but I need to be sleeping because I have to be awake at 6.30 again tomorrow. I SHALL BEGIN TOMORROW. someone teach me how to write action scenes in the interim like ten hours. while I'm sleeping and working. that would be great.

ETA: So within half an hour of posting this I had to call the dean of girls for the sick girl and she went to hospital fifteen minutes later. And I have a protective streak, and I like her, and I'm the one who took her to the hospital when she had pneumonia and I've been pushing her to get a doctor's appointment ever since to figure out what's wrong and I am worrying my head off for her.


Jan. 11th, 2011 10:43 am
be_themoon: I want a better world. By me. (Default)
I have turned in all my applications except for the one that is due on the 1st of February! I am assembling some poetry for consideration in scholarships at two of them, which involves a great deal of polishing and going "aaaaaagh why don't I write short stories that are not fannish!".

ALSO I did Yuletide, because I was eligible for the first time eveeer and I wasn't going to pass up on that. And I got Eagle of the Ninth fic!

Aedific─üre, by opalmatrix. It is utterly delightful and everything I wanted. I can't believe how lucky I got! IT'S AWESOME. It is subtle, subtle Esca/Marcus/Cottia OT3 as they build the farm and tiptoe around each other and become bestest best friends eveeeeeer. :DDD you should totally read it.

And I wrote:

The Things We Say Are True
Skyhigh. PG-13. Penny/Gwen, Warren.
“I’ve broken a lot of personal rules for you,” Penny says.

Which was quite fun to write, in the end. I really enjoyed it. :D

in other news, I somehow ended up creating a three-part, 21 song fanmix for what's really nothing more than me messing around with typical procedurals/supernatural hunting shows. Or what I had thought was just me having fun! Apparently sometime my brain got serious over it? NO. Bad brain! get back to Cabin Fever, it needs you! no more new projects! 

also, my dad comes home this week sometime (which is good, mostly, though difficult as always), school is about to start up again (OMG YAY my schedule is so pretty this spring!), I have actual free time for another week, I'm doing some secretary work for my mom which I shall get paid for, and in general things are shaping up! YAY. TRIPLE YAY. IMAGINE ME GRINNING HAPPILY HERE. The only downside is me having been sick for a week, but even that is getting better!

be_themoon: I want a better world. By me. (L&O:UK: Matt/Alesha: I lift my eyes)
so I really haven't been updating, um, almost at all.


TV: I am keeping up on - uh, nothing? I kept up on Merlin! at least the last three weeks. and enjoyed the finale very much, while being amused at the weird mixing up of myths going on (as always). Sam and Kat have found Psych through my older brother and are devouring it, so I've seen random episodes of it while they're watching. It's really, really fun, and relaxing, though it totally hits my embarassment squick buttons all the time. some Glee, too, though I tend to skip loads of it and mostly watch the Kurt parts and the music.

my dad: came home tonight. He's exhausted and not feeling well, and I'm kind of unsure as to how this is going to work without us all feeling a deep desire to murder things, but at least he's out of the hospital.

college applications: in process.

other stuff: I'm doing puppeteering every night this week for this thing my church runs. my choir concert is this Sunday. finals are next week, but they shouldn't be that hard (not cumulative, yay!). Mostly I just want to get this school year and my applications done and turned in, and then watch TV for ... a REALLY LONG TIME. Law and Order: UK! (JAMIE AND FREEMAAAAAAA.) The Good Wife! (KALINDA.) Supernatural! (fairies, I hear!) Psych! the whole way through this time! The Event, which I am deeply behind on. .... that might be it. I can't remember. (OMG DOCTOR WHO CHRISTMAS SPECIAL SOOOOOON.)

other things I will be so happy to have more time for! the 3-sentence ficathon. :DDD GUUUUYS IT IS SO MUCH FUN and so low-key and stress relieving and beautiful. Come play with me!
be_themoon: I want a better world. By me. (DW: OT4: together we can do anything)
 so I'm home! Uh. I don't really know what to say. it was amazing? I had a fabulous time with Wyrm and Z, as I'm sure you've all gathered. :D I am completely in love with colleges.

my dad's in the hospital with what appears to be pneumonia and an atrial fibrillation (?), which is better than the initial possible diagnosis of congestive heart failure! he should be out soon, which is good.

Mostly I'm just really really tired. Um. Meto, I've finally finished the rough draft of my T:SCC vid? I dunno if you're still having computer issues, but if you aren't maybe you could give it a look-over for me? Or other people who watch T:SCC and can give me any feedback on the vid. 

And that's about it. I'm exhausted, and happy, and have to study for an astronomy quiz tomorrow morning, and set up when I take the quizzes I missed with my professors, and all sorts of stuff. I think I could use some more sugar. *goes to find the gingersnap dough*

be_themoon: I want a better world. By me. (STXI: Uhura: can't handle half of me)
 Things I have been up to in RL - mailing in voting registration! going through stacks of college info! I have a list of 5 colleges I'm almost definitely applying to - Yale, Brown, Adelphi, Tulane, and U of C, which about fifteen other colleges I'm going to look through to bring that up to 8 total. 

Flist, you are fantastic, by the way. Out of the five colleges I am definitely applying to, my flist is either going to or knows people at four of them. I am like this \o/ at how amazing you are, and how kind and helpful. <33333

Also I am joining a rock climbing team most likely, as of tomorrow! So that'll be interesting. Hopefully with instruction and frequent guided practice I'll be able to start getting V3's, which would be fabulous. (I will also possibly be competing. Ack!)

Fannishly I am fairly quiet. I shall probably be signing up for the xover_exchange, and I have to finish my two help_pakistan projects (A;TLA fic and T:SCC vid), but other than that I won't be doing much. Watched the first episode of this season's Merlin and just couldn't get into it except for a few moments, which made me sad. I might keep trying, but I don't watch TV when it feels like a chore more than anything. 

On the other hand, L&O: UK has a new episode! Jamie Bamber and Freema Aygeman on my screen again was a delight, and the rest of the cast is pretty great too. The episode was kind of horrifying but also quite well done, and I enjoyed it a lot. Pity there's so little of it. :(

Off to do homework and SAT prep! Maybe I shall cook today too, if I can get it in before I go to Teen Court.

be_themoon: I want a better world. By me. (Narnia: Susan: fire at will)
 So this Tuesday starts my senior year of high school. The fall is going to be interesting - I'm only taking three dual-enrolled classes (Astronomy, American History to 1876, and Pre-History to Medieval Humanities), but I have to study for the SAT, the ACT, and the World History, Literature, and Mathematics Level I SAT Subject Tests. Also get applications for colleges together, and figure out where I want to go. I'm a big fan of Yale and Brown, and my chances are a lot better now that [redacted awesome news not allowed to tell until Wednesday], but I still really need to have third and fourth and fifth choices (I don't particularly want to apply to more than five schools, but I will if necessary). Hopefully I'll be visiting colleges some weekend this fall, which should help me figure out. Part of the problem in finding the schools I want to apply to is that - well, I have no idea what I'm going to major in. If I do Social Work, I would go to grad school for it, so my majors in college are wide open. Aaaaah.

Also, I really, really like teaching people. It's in my genes, guys! All girls in my family are doomed to teach. :P This Friday at co-op, I went in so that they wouldn't have to come back and pick me up before going somewhere else, and one of the Chemistry students had forgotten to do his homework, so I sat down and helped him with it. It was loads and loads of fun, and I don't even really like Chemistry. I just... enjoyed teaching it to someone. I didn't even mind that it was taking over an hour of my limited computer time that day. 

Okay - in the next few months, you can expect my NFE, one White Collar vid, and one as yet unknown fanfic and vid (from help_pakistan). And then I'll probably be pretty quiet on the creation front for a while, though I might do some casual vidding for relaxing purposes.

(AAARGH can I be 18 now stop it LJ with the adult notifications it is less than two months!)

be_themoon: I want a better world. By me. (CM: Prentiss: what is this fuckery?)
things I am doing: being rubbish at keeping up with my f-list. being rubbish at ScriptFrenzy, though I am finally starting to catch up. being absolutely rubbish at not procrastinating. woo, 10-page paper due in about three weeks! uh. heh.

Today in poetry, we have something short and not really sweet. sort of? but lovely.

The Spirit Says, You Are Nothing by Larry Levin

But you were young, and you had
Plenty of time:
Going west,

You slept on the train and did not smile.
Under you the plains widened, turned silver.

You slept with your mouth open.

You were nothing,
You were snow falling through the ribs
Of the dead.

You were all I had
be_themoon: I want a better world. By me. (Misc: Pic: no good reason to act her age)
FIRST and most importantly as well! HAPPY BIRTHDAY, [ profile] zempasuchil . I hope it is a fabulous one. :D I would write you things, but I am afraid that I am too busy. <33333 I shall make do with good wishes and cheer! LOVE YOU LOTS AND LOTS.

Speaking of busy: this Saturday my mom leaves for New Zealand. She'll be gone for a week attending my sister's wedding. My older sister is out West skiing with her boyfriend and his family. Essentially, this means that I'm in charge of meals, cleaning, school, and getting everyone (including me) to school/baseball/other places on time for a week. This will Not Be Fun, especially because both of my younger siblings are kind of jerks when it comes to cleaning. I do almost all of the cleaning in the house - they do some yard work on Saturdays and make lots of messes. (Yesterday night I found molded over steak in the back of the stove, which I had had no occasion to use or clean since last Friday. I had mistakenly assumed that others weren't just dumping dirty frying pans and plates in there.) When I ask them to clean, they don't. When I get angry at them because of that, they yell and say that I never do anything. At which point I go really quiet and kind of scary. It is not fun.

Also: ScriptFrenzy and Remix, same time. I can... totally do this? Uh. TOTALLY. well, I can, but it'll be tough. but I am SO PLEASED to be writing Cabin Fever, SO PLEASED you have no idea. I have been needing a new original fic project to distract me from wanting to turn to go nowhere with you into a whole 'verse.

Three tests recently - one today, one last Tuesday, one take-home due next Tuesday. Got a 61% on the Biology test, which is killing me inside. I just. GAH. It's definitely my fault, there. *facepalm*

Okay time for happy things. happy things like writing memes! TWO OF THEM. an old favorite and one picked up from fahye.

Ask me a question about one of my fics -- characters, plot, what happened before or after, what the writing process was like, what scenes I cut or changed, other ways the fic could have gone, relevant bits of backstory/headcanon/worldbuilding, what a certain line or scene meant or was in reference to, what various characters were doing offscreen, or anything else you can think of. Questions can be as silly/serious/sexy as you like.


Give me the title of a story I've never written, and feedback telling me what you liked best about it, and I will tell you any of: the first sentence, the last sentence, the thing that made me want to write it, the biggest problem I had while writing it, why it almost never got posted, the scene that hit the cutting room floor but that I wish I'd been able to salvage, or something else that I want readers to know.

ETA: THAT'S IT I'M GOING HOME AND MAKING SOMETHING WITH SUGAR OR AT LEAST VAGUELY SWEET AND NOTHING CAN STOP ME I SWEAR TO GOD. *glitter rage meltdown* Shit, I knew I was heading towards this. It's what I was trying to avoid with cathartic sad TV, which worked but not as long as I'd hoped. Now I'm tired and crying in the school library for NO REASON whatsoever. goddamnit. I have a driving test tomorrow and I cannot fail it and. I just.

going home. making sugar. doing writing memes and fixing Pevensies/Winchester of Doom and I am going to HAVE A GOOD WEEKEND.
be_themoon: I want a better world. By me. (Default)
I just realized that over the past few months, I've accumulated quite a new friends - some from Narnia, some from isurrendered, some just picked up in various places.

Things Those Of You Who Are Fairly New Should Know:
1. I vary wildly between being very honest about my depression (possibly bipolar disorder) or only talking about good things. Pretending it doesn't exist is my gut instinct. I'm trying to be more honest about it, if only because it forces me to be honest about it with myself. So warnings for occasional discussion of mental issues.
2. I also occasionally discuss my familial issues.
3. Things I will almost never discuss on this journal: religion or politics. If I do, they will be cut. I'm not bothered by other people writing about them, it's just a personal decision on my part.
4. I'm a feminist.
5. You start drama, bad things happen.
6. LOVE YOU GUYS. <333

OH HEY that essay is due tomorrow SHIT. Tune in tomorrow to find out if Betsy can BS two-three pages of imagery discussion on Larissa Szporluk's Menace of the Skies, partially picked because I delight in baffling my professor with my actual interest in poetry. (He said in class "Attach a copy of the poem to your essay if you think I haven't read it before. I'll probably recognize any poems you do." Me: "HAHA" *searches through collection of bookmarks*)
be_themoon: I want a better world. By me. (SPN: SamnDean: we aim to misbehave)
hey guys, remember how I wanted to write that one essay about kids getting kicked out of fantasy worlds?

yeah, well, I have a research project assignment in ENC1102. approximately 10-page page paper on anything I want in literature.

be_themoon: I want a better world. By me. (Avatar: Yue: *glare*)
you guys I am in love with college and erasures and poetry and language and such things. I did an erasure and now have to wait for the original author's permission to post it. and I'm finally posting a poem I wrote about a month ago and wasn't sure about posting.

say a prayer backwards

words are important )


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