some people see the revolution

First up! There were some beautiful things written for me recently.

( written for me + two vid recs + comic rec )

( stuff I've written recently )

And while I don't feel like tracking down all the stuff I wrote this year, I figure I might as well answer the end-of-year writing questions meme because why not?

( talking about fic )

Um, I'm also going to declare this free-for-all on asking me anything about anything I've written. I kind of doubt there are questions, but if there are feel free to ask, or tell me that I got something wrong, or other stuff.

Happy New Year, everyone!

 still pretty miserable. headache-y and not good in general. at least I am no longer nauseous? mostly? this is so stupid. 

I've been meaning to do this since Remix went live but have been kind of sick most of that time. 

He That Outlives This Day was written for me. It's a remix of my HP fic How Do They Rise Up, and it is FANTASTIC. It takes the same story and goes at it from Padma's perspective instead of Hermione's. Thoughtful and beautiful and lovely. I have been so lucky with Remix authors. Every time so far, they've just turned out the most amazing remixes of some of my favorite works. <3333 Read it. It's beautiful.

 Today is Mary's second-to-last day at home, and her last full day. I have been absurdly busy, but in the short moments I've been online, I have been SO pleased about all the vids being posted. (VidCon! though not all of them, I think.)

So a drive-by rec: Run With Me by chaila43 , which is essentially a vid about how River Song could probably take on the entire universe and WIN because she is just that awesome, and it is a vid to Speeding Cars by Imogen Heap, and it is just AWESOME, omg. Parallels! Wonderful cutting! The story of River and the Doctor done so well and so beautifully! It makes me giddy with joooy.

okay, off to play Alibi with family. considering that I have managed approximately four days to myself in the past four-five weeks, I'm pretty sure I'll spend most of tomorrow past noon hiding in my room having a nervous breakdown, finishing rewatching T:SCC or watching other stuff, and hanging out on Skype hoping to talk to people. See you!

So, it is Three Weeks for Dreamwidth. I'm planning to do a GK reaction post sometime, because that was a beautiful, beautiful show, in the way truth is beautiful. And I'm also snagging from everywhere:

What kind of topics/entries would you like to see me posting about? Any particular questions you've always wanted to ask me but have resisted because the answer would be a huge essay? Ever want to wind me up and watch me go on a particular topic? Anything you've heard me say "I should write that entry about $foo I've been meaning to write" and have been patiently waiting for?

Alternatively, you can request fic for any of my fandoms that may or may not get written (ACK FINALS) and posted only on DW.

ALSO for those SPN fans reading this, read Below skyscrapers (for a dropout). It's for an exchange, so the author's anonymous at the moment. It's Dean/Castiel, with some of the most well-done worldbuilding I've seen in a long time. I almost wish it was original work, because the world created in this fic is incredible, so pulled together, all these little details at the edges.

you guys omg Lass erased this temporary flesh and bone and it is beautiful and you should all go read it! so pretty. *_* in other, less important news, I wrote Lethe being confused about religion. I have mentioned fanfic is my catharsis, yes? though this ended up not really being about my issues at all, oddly.

Title: how to split your heart open
Fandom: Cabin Fever by be_themoon 
Characters/Pairings: Mary, Lethe
Rating: G
Warnings: None!
Summary: Lethe does not understand religion.
Author's Note: Once upon a time, this also had a coda ending with a Latin prayer that I translated because I am a dork like that. Sadly, it didn't fit. So now it just doesn't have any ending. :P Title from the poem Marfa by Linda Gregg.

( She lights a candle and you watch her kneel. )

+ Today I had Christmas! my sister is leaving tomorrow and won't be back again for a long time, so we figured we would have Christmas this Sunday, complete with the traditional breakfast (Christmas Morning Coffee Cake, bacon, eggs, oranges/orange juice) and a tree and everything, which turned out really nice. :) We didn't do a lot of presents, but the ones we did were really good - a sweater, a lap stand for the laptop, a water bottle, and my sister got matching rings for all four of us girls. And then later at my grandmother's I got cash and a really nice necklace, and when we stopped by Whole Foods Market on the way home I got myself two boxes of tea, both green. I'm drinking one of them right now, it's quite nice. So yay!

+ School's wrapped up, except for my final in A. P. Gov., which is nice. School doesn't start again for me until January 20th, though I do have to get my books before that.

+ I'm working on the apocabigbang and have quibbles about a few things. I want all of the Pevensies there, and I'm specifically going to be pretty vague about how they got there. And I really want to have Sam and Dean and Castiel, but part of me wants to use this as a midway point for the Dean and Cas we see in 'The End', because it would fit pretty well as a 'break them more!' thing. BUT. I really want Sam in on it. So maybe I'll hint that this happened in the alternate-timeline-that-Zachariah-created too? AGH. I don't know. (Pairings showing up so far in my vague outline. Sam/Lucy/Edmund, Dean/Castiel, Peter/Susan, past!Susan/Dean.)

+ just something I wanted to mention - one of my friends who has watched the old Trek series/movies recently watched XI and was like 'I loved it all except for Uhura - she wasn't RIGHT. she was too sharp!' and I just sat there and went 'wut?' she also objected to the Spock/Uhura relationship because it wasn't in the actual series. which. I dunno, it was just frustrating to me, because everyone (in RL that I've talked to) seems to be bringing Uhura down when she was ridiculously awesome and so on top of things. I loved her! why can't everyone else? :(

+ I've still been neglecting my f-list, which is sad. I'm going to get back on top of things this week, though. I have been reading everything on my f-list, just been really distracted and busy, even after NaNo ended (portfolio! tests! omg for a second there I panicked and was like 'I HAVEN'T TAKEN MY MATH FINAL' but no. no, that was last Thursday. whew!). this week is purely for relaxing and hanging out online with y'all and writing. it will be fabulous!

+ it is rec time! divided up!

( one show, two vids, three fics, lots of poetry. )

+ Lass wrote more Narnia Durkheim fic, which is naturally awesome. Forms & Foundations. Susan & Edmund. This world tells her, You are Susan Pevensie, a whole equal to the sum of her parts, and she wonders what that entails.

+ Florida got a cold snap in the past few days and my hands are freezing. off. I'm not even really kidding about this - I have poor circulation in my hands and feet, and I pretty much always have cold hands, but in the cold weather they just don't warm up. at all. it makes typing a little annoying.

+ my little procrastination habit? really bad this past week. feels like I'm physically incapable of doing school unless there is a tangible deadline, and even then it's close. I finished my 1.5K essay due tonight about half an hour before it was due. makes me feel stupid. I've got to stop that.

+ things are like... shifting? I dunno. I mean, I took the PSAT, which is suddenly feeling like a tangible piece of my possible history and every time I think about it I start worrying about the questions and if I did well enough, because my mom wants me to get the Merit Scholarship. and I mean, fuck, you have to be really really smart to do that and I just don't know if I'm that good. I could be, I think. I should be. but I've been distracted and unable to concentrate and just, fuck, you guys. if I want to go to a good college without pulling a couple hundred scholarship strings, I need that Merit Scholarship. I need the prestige that comes with it so that the colleges want me. agh. I don't want to be stressed by this but inexplicably, I am. I have a year and a half before I graduate highschool! I'm planning on taking a gap year, maybe two! I should not be worrying about this shit yet. *deep breaths*

+ on a much more cheerful note, MUSIC. "The Captain and the Hourglass" by Laura Marling. It's kind of melancholy, kind of hopeful, and I love it a lot because of these two lines - "He’s done with all this bullshit, he’s going back to war, / If Heaven is as Heaven does then this is Hell for sure." Also, because Kathy recommended it to me and now I can't stop listening, "Citadel" by Anna Nalick. And naturally, my very own theme song for cloudy days, "Defying Gravity" from Wicked. Complete with kickass Firefly vid, of course. Also a lot of Vienna Teng, because she has a gorgeous voice.

+ now I need to go to bed. so I can wake up and take a math test. oh shit. one that I haven't really studied for aghkshgdlg. I shall have to wake up early.

+ my library got in around 11 new Pratchett books. feast on those words. ELEVEN NEW PRATCHETT BOOKS THAT I HAVEN'T READ ASHKLGHDLFKDJGS. well, that's no longer true. I've already finished three of them - Jingo, Equal Rites, and Thief of Time, all three of which were FABULOUS. I now feel a great desire more of Susan Sto Helit, and thoroughly understand why so many people seem to adore her. she's fantastic! not to mention, my mom picked one of them up because she was certain she would disapprove, started reading, and got hooked! AHAHAHA. she picked up Going Postal, which I'd just brought home and haven't read yet, and was all 'how come I have never heard of him? he's hilarious! how did you find out?' :DDDDDD yayyy! I don't know how long her interest will last - probably until she finds out there are witches - but until then, hooray!

+ hahaha, TV this week was fabulous. more on Merlin... sometime later.

+ NaNo! NANO NANO NANO. in short, NaNo. :D I'm reworking my nostalgia novel into a story about revolution and magic and oppression and lots of geekery on language and philosophy and mythology and idealogy and who knows what else. it will be fun!

+ speaking of which, music! I went through my music and wrote down the songs that fit the story. so here's a... for lack of a better word... fanmix for my novel. heh. no download, but they're all available on songza.com

( musiccccc )

Yesterday night, I watched Masterpiece Mystery's 'Miss Marple: Murder is Easy' (which you can watch online here) with my mom. They've been doing a run of Agathie Christie pieces - there were some Poirot ones, then four Marple ones are due (this is the second). The first one was A Pocketful of Rye last week, which had Matthew McFaddyen in it, who did not look at all like himself as Darcy most of the film and thereby drove me crazy because 'THAT IS MCFADDYEN'S VOICE, OKAY? I KNOW IT. Part of the reason he was so great as Darcy was because he had that deep voice! I have watched P&P like, twenty times. IT IS HIM. I AM SURE OF IT.' Eventually I checked on IMDB and haha! I was right!

This week's Marple piece had two Doctor Who alumna - Midshipman Alonzo from 'Voyage of the Damned' played the Constable, who was adorable out of his depth only wait a minute, that's some clever questioning, kid. Ooooh. Nice one. Not quite so out of your depth after all, are you? And then Ursula from 'Love and Monsters,' who has such a distinctive voice that I recognized it despite having watched only the very last bit of her episode, played Honoria Waynflete, one of the most interesting characters in the thing.

Anyways. I would recommend them - you can watch them online at the places I linked to, and they're some nice, well-done pieces, though they do have a tendency to show the murders and bodies a bit close-up. Like I'm watching for the murders! I'm watching for the cleverness.

Ugh.

You know what I'm trying to do right now? Not drown in life. Write something that isn't fanfiction or crack.

This is proving really really hard.

So! To alleviate my distress, I'm reccing Susan-fics.

Went Forth Unconquered, by gisho 
Susan Pevensie is, in no particular order, an orphan, an atheist, remarkably beautiful, firmly practical, and a Queen. Depending on how the accounting is done, she is either eighteen or fourty-three years old. She is virtuous and kind. She is neither a virgin nor a fool.

If I had to pick only one Susan fic to recommend to someone, this would be it. It's really, really freakishly beautiful. REAAAD.

When All Will Be Forgiven, by peskywhistpaw 
The first time it happens, it is an accident. After that day, the one she never talks about, she takes to walking alone for hours on end. No more parties, no more friends, no more lipstick or fancy clothes. All that remains, and all that life is for Susan Pevensie, is the sound of her own footsteps on the soft ground of the woods.

This one is lovely. I think it could do without the Suspian overtones, but I still enjoy it a lot.

Dreams Are Which I'm Dying Are The Best I've Ever Had, by ineptshieldmaid 
The dreams stop when they come home: for Susan, at least, the dreams stop.

This is short but ever so lovely and sad.