(no subject)

[be_themoon]

so, yesterday I went to the beach, with Sam and Kat and Esther and Matt-Esther's-boyfriend and his friend Adel. mostly it was lots of fun, and I really enjoyed myself. except for The Incident.

we'd been having what more or less passed as a mud-slinging war over the sand castle Kat, Esther, Sam and I were building and the two older guys kept trying to knock down, particularly Adel. one of those kid's surf boards got involved and somehow I ended up on my back under it with all of Adel's weight pressing me down. I hadn't been aware I could panic that badly. if he hadn't been being chased off by Kat by the time I got out from under it, I might have gone into instinctive defense mode and actually hurt him, particularly as I was also in pain (the center of my back was on a mound of sand and something popped). the mix of a larger man and a trapped space freaked the hell out of me, and I know that Adel would never voluntarily hurt me - he's a really sweet kid, honestly. it was just... scary.

heck, I can't even think of it now without feeling cold and my heartrate going up.

in much more wonderfulness, someone did a picspam solely about how completely ridiculously BLUE Misha Collins' eyes are as Castiel. and yes, it is as awesome as it sounds.

Comments

[ineptshieldmaid.livejournal.com]

*hugs you*

Ugh. Trapped = bad. Yes.

[be-themoon.livejournal.com]

scares the shit out of me, I finally realized. I'm not normally trapped, but I finally figured out what the panic attacks are from. :P *hugs* thank you!

[snacky]

Ugh, that's creepy scary! I'm glad it wasn't any worse.

[be-themoon.livejournal.com]

it was decidedly unpleasant - and yeah, considering that even momentary pressure made my back sore for the rest of the day, there was potential for some bad damage to my back. erhg.

[katakokk.livejournal.com]

That's SCARY. O_____O *hugs*

[be-themoon.livejournal.com]

it wasn't any fun, that's for sure. :/ thank you bb. *hugs*

[katakokk.livejournal.com]

No problem. :)

Two things:

(1) Your birthday is soon (so LJ tells me). Fic requests (most likely, it will be late, but still)?
(2) I posted an entry with my NaNo soundtrack. :)

[be-themoon.livejournal.com]

1) oh! yeah, it is... this Friday, actually. I keep forgetting. :P if you want to write me something, anything would be fabulous! you know my loves. if you want more specific, mm. I think I would love Edmund/Jadis (your Jadis piece for the Exchange? EFFING AWESOME. I keep feeling guilty about not reviewing it but not having time to do it justice. D:) or back-in-England-shenanigans, as in Ed is a complete badass even when he's 12 in war-torn England. *shifty*

2) I KNOW I KNOW I SAW IT. heeee! there was some awesome music on there - I actually have it like, on my schedule to respond to tonight, once I finish listening to the various songs. :DDD

[katakokk.livejournal.com]

1) Aww, you forgot? Hmmm, you have given me some ideas to chew on, perhaps there will be Edmund/Jadis, so I can try my hand at Golden Age (and thank you, bb! Take your time. :D), but we'll see.

2) Hahaha, you have a schedule? I dunno why, but that's so you. XD

[lazaefair.livejournal.com]

I'm glad someone got him off you in time. :( *hugs*

Also, thank you for linking me to that Castiel picspam. Someone else on my flist linked to a bunch of Dean/Castiel fics a few days ago and lo and behold, I have been converted to the hotness that is Misha Collins. Unf.

[be-themoon.livejournal.com]

yeah, me too. :/ *hugs* thank you!

OMG I KNOWWWWWWW. guy's ridiculously hot, not to mention he's ridiculously AWESOME. no seriously. go read his twitter. yes, that's his actual twitter - he's confirmed it multiple times. once he said at a convention, "Sometimes there is this thought I have up here - should I say something serious? and then I think, No. No."

the only true explanation for his sheer ridiculousness and awesomeness and crazily good looks is that he is a mass fangirl hallucination.

[lazaefair.livejournal.com]

I am already crazily jealous of any past, current, and future romantic partners he may have. *sigh*

[be-themoon.livejournal.com]

yeah, me too. *sigh* I wish I could meet him sometime without feeling like a total idiot. :P