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[be_themoon]

I am so tired of having commitment isues. It doesn't help with writing or relationships. I don't even know what causes these problems, I just know that the thought of marriage at the least worries me and on bad days terrifies me, and that I've always had problems with starting something large. I just... balk at the idea of commitment, and I don't know why.

And these mood swings, it's ridiculous! I've gone back and forth between happy and angry three or four times just today. This is ridiculous. I need it to stop, preferably now.

Ugh. What makes it worse is that I'm pretty sure these are my depression issues flaring up again and I really don't need that, not now. I don't have the RL support system I need, my sisters are having problems of their own, and my dad is on the verge of a rampage and has been for a while.

Damnit RL, behave.

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*hugs back* Thanks so much - honestly, the only thing keeping me sane right now is just knowing that my f-list is out there being awesome. <333 Mostly right now I just need to be able to hide at home and browse the interwebs and just... well, hide from life I guess. :P Unfortunately, this is not an option. :/