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[be_themoon]

+ Lass wrote more Narnia Durkheim fic, which is naturally awesome. Forms & Foundations. Susan & Edmund. This world tells her, You are Susan Pevensie, a whole equal to the sum of her parts, and she wonders what that entails.

+ Florida got a cold snap in the past few days and my hands are freezing. off. I'm not even really kidding about this - I have poor circulation in my hands and feet, and I pretty much always have cold hands, but in the cold weather they just don't warm up. at all. it makes typing a little annoying.

+ my little procrastination habit? really bad this past week. feels like I'm physically incapable of doing school unless there is a tangible deadline, and even then it's close. I finished my 1.5K essay due tonight about half an hour before it was due. makes me feel stupid. I've got to stop that.

+ things are like... shifting? I dunno. I mean, I took the PSAT, which is suddenly feeling like a tangible piece of my possible history and every time I think about it I start worrying about the questions and if I did well enough, because my mom wants me to get the Merit Scholarship. and I mean, fuck, you have to be really really smart to do that and I just don't know if I'm that good. I could be, I think. I should be. but I've been distracted and unable to concentrate and just, fuck, you guys. if I want to go to a good college without pulling a couple hundred scholarship strings, I need that Merit Scholarship. I need the prestige that comes with it so that the colleges want me. agh. I don't want to be stressed by this but inexplicably, I am. I have a year and a half before I graduate highschool! I'm planning on taking a gap year, maybe two! I should not be worrying about this shit yet. *deep breaths*

+ on a much more cheerful note, MUSIC. "The Captain and the Hourglass" by Laura Marling. It's kind of melancholy, kind of hopeful, and I love it a lot because of these two lines - "He’s done with all this bullshit, he’s going back to war, / If Heaven is as Heaven does then this is Hell for sure." Also, because Kathy recommended it to me and now I can't stop listening, "Citadel" by Anna Nalick. And naturally, my very own theme song for cloudy days, "Defying Gravity" from Wicked. Complete with kickass Firefly vid, of course. Also a lot of Vienna Teng, because she has a gorgeous voice.

+ now I need to go to bed. so I can wake up and take a math test. oh shit. one that I haven't really studied for aghkshgdlg. I shall have to wake up early.

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[marycontraire.livejournal.com]

+ I have bad circulation, too. WE MUST BE TWINSES. But since I actually live in a cold place it's kind of a problem.

+ Don't worry about the PSATs, they are really not that important. Colleges are going to care a lot more about your grades and whether you have "defined interests" and your real SAT scores and bullshit like that.

+ I love "The Captain and the Hourglass." On of my favorite Laura Marling songs, at the moment.

+ Go here and listen to their cover of "Everybody Wants to Rule the World," you might like it.

[be-themoon.livejournal.com]

oucchhh, I can only imagine if I lived someplace that was actually cold. *shivers*

I mean, theoretically I know these things, but my brain refuses to accept that this is true.

oh, hey! that's a cool song. thanks!

i too have cold hands :(

[lassiterfics.livejournal.com]

XD you are too much. And I only half wrote it!

half an hour before it was due. makes me feel stupid. I've got to stop that.
I should probably not be saying this, but that is nothing. HAHA OH HOW I HAVE GONE TO PROCRASTINATION AND BOUGHT A SHIRT (AND A NICE BUNGALOW)

good luck with the test, dawg

Re: i too have cold hands :(

[be-themoon.livejournal.com]

but it is beautifulllll! <3333

hey I might need to share that bungalow with you. *eyes homework in alarm* IT IS CHASING ME, I SWEAR.

thanks! I think it went well.

[katakokk.livejournal.com]

+ Bad circulation, I may possibly have! I get cold feet/hands really easily, and when I went skiing I was always having to like un-thaw my hands on the lifts (aka move them so they wouldn't freeze into a holding-poles-position).

+ I wouldn't worry too much about the PSAT, bb. As long as you tried your best, and besides, I'm pretty sure colleges are looking for unique people more than people with the stereotypical good grades, all AP classes, etc.

+ I need to check out this Laura Marling song! And yay, Citadel and Vienna Teng!

[be-themoon.livejournal.com]

it is terribly annoying! *scowl* at least we can be comrades in discomfort. grr.

I mean, I know I shouldn't worry about it. but my brain isn't precisely listening to me in this matter. ergh.

it's really pretty! MUSICCCC.

[zempasuchil.livejournal.com]

Don't worry about National Merit! Rare are the people who get it and many many more people go to college than even get a National Merit nod. And it is so possible to go to those places without pulling a ton of scholarship strings, and even if you get National Merit you'd probably have to find and pull those strings anyway - believe me, colleges don't care *that* much about how you perform on the PSAT as a junior. Grades and essays are becoming far, far, far more important than standardized tests.

Are you really planning on taking a gap year after high school? to do what?

[be-themoon.livejournal.com]

thanks, bb! I'm trying to force my brain to be rational about this, and it isn't working so fantasticly. :P

yup! I know a few people who think they got more out of college coming in later, and besides, it's the perfect time to travel Europe for a bit. I want to try to get a job as a nanny in Europe for a year or two, or maybe two different jobs, so that I get to live in a different country for a while. I'll be almost 20 and I've been taking care of kids since I was... 12? yeah. I like kids a lot, and I'm pretty good at taking care of them.

[zempasuchil.livejournal.com]

being a nanny or an au pair sounds like it'd be awesome. and you're experienced with that, too :) definitely take advantage of that opportunity to travel and see parts of the world! some schools ask for like a justification of time taken off between high school and college.