cook, don't kill.

[be_themoon]

FIRST and most importantly as well! HAPPY BIRTHDAY, zempasuchil . I hope it is a fabulous one. :D I would write you things, but I am afraid that I am too busy. <33333 I shall make do with good wishes and cheer! LOVE YOU LOTS AND LOTS.

Speaking of busy: this Saturday my mom leaves for New Zealand. She'll be gone for a week attending my sister's wedding. My older sister is out West skiing with her boyfriend and his family. Essentially, this means that I'm in charge of meals, cleaning, school, and getting everyone (including me) to school/baseball/other places on time for a week. This will Not Be Fun, especially because both of my younger siblings are kind of jerks when it comes to cleaning. I do almost all of the cleaning in the house - they do some yard work on Saturdays and make lots of messes. (Yesterday night I found molded over steak in the back of the stove, which I had had no occasion to use or clean since last Friday. I had mistakenly assumed that others weren't just dumping dirty frying pans and plates in there.) When I ask them to clean, they don't. When I get angry at them because of that, they yell and say that I never do anything. At which point I go really quiet and kind of scary. It is not fun.

Also: ScriptFrenzy and Remix, same time. I can... totally do this? Uh. TOTALLY. well, I can, but it'll be tough. but I am SO PLEASED to be writing Cabin Fever, SO PLEASED you have no idea. I have been needing a new original fic project to distract me from wanting to turn to go nowhere with you into a whole 'verse.

Three tests recently - one today, one last Tuesday, one take-home due next Tuesday. Got a 61% on the Biology test, which is killing me inside. I just. GAH. It's definitely my fault, there. *facepalm*

Okay time for happy things. happy things like writing memes! TWO OF THEM. an old favorite and one picked up from fahye.

Ask me a question about one of my fics -- characters, plot, what happened before or after, what the writing process was like, what scenes I cut or changed, other ways the fic could have gone, relevant bits of backstory/headcanon/worldbuilding, what a certain line or scene meant or was in reference to, what various characters were doing offscreen, or anything else you can think of. Questions can be as silly/serious/sexy as you like.

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Give me the title of a story I've never written, and feedback telling me what you liked best about it, and I will tell you any of: the first sentence, the last sentence, the thing that made me want to write it, the biggest problem I had while writing it, why it almost never got posted, the scene that hit the cutting room floor but that I wish I'd been able to salvage, or something else that I want readers to know.

ETA: THAT'S IT I'M GOING HOME AND MAKING SOMETHING WITH SUGAR OR AT LEAST VAGUELY SWEET AND NOTHING CAN STOP ME I SWEAR TO GOD. *glitter rage meltdown* Shit, I knew I was heading towards this. It's what I was trying to avoid with cathartic sad TV, which worked but not as long as I'd hoped. Now I'm tired and crying in the school library for NO REASON whatsoever. goddamnit. I have a driving test tomorrow and I cannot fail it and. I just.

going home. making sugar. doing writing memes and fixing Pevensies/Winchester of Doom and I am going to HAVE A GOOD WEEKEND.

Comments

[alexseanchai]

I absolutely adored the SamnDean in "Beat the Devil's Tattoo" even though they're never even in the same scene till the end. They're so broken when they're apart. And they're soulmates and it's gen and I don't even have words for how that makes me go flaily.

the song I am thinking of is free over thisaway and lyrics are here

[be-themoon.livejournal.com]

The thing about Sam and Dean is that they are defined by each other. Always have been. That they're the other's weak spot is just a natural reaction. OH, SAMnDEAN. <333

those lines from near the beginning
And it was always a balancing act, Sam knows, how they caught one each other's peripheral vision no matter how far away they are. He always half-expected it to tip one day, send them both spilling, and now he's licking his wounds in a shady hotel like hundreds he's stayed at before, remarkable only by the absence of Dean and his own defiant refusal to outline the doors with salt.

[alexseanchai]

*bounce*

[zempasuchil.livejournal.com]

(OMG BETSY THAT LAST LIIIIINE YOU BROKE MY HEART!)

[be-themoon.livejournal.com]

IT'S ALL SPN'S FAULT, I REALLY TRY NOT TO I SWEAR.

(... no wait, that's a lie.)

[lassiterfics.livejournal.com]

I am still head over heels in love with your SPN/Narnia crossover 'Orthopraxy' because Anna/Susan. I mean, that should be reason enough, right? Sexy ladies bonding over getting kicked out of heaven for daring to love the world. What about that doesn't scream 'best ever'? And gosh, the make-outs were already keysmash, but then you brought in familyyyyy and yeah go on and break my heart okay. Please break my heart forever.

[alexseanchai]

*points* what she said.

I ♥ that there are people who know the word 'orthopraxy'.

[be-themoon.livejournal.com]

first liine:
Despite what her siblings may think, Susan has always believed in angels. Not benevolent ones, though. She knows too much of velvet-padded claws that are still sharp to do more than smile indulgently at pictures of cherubim with their harps.

[be-themoon.livejournal.com]

OH SUSAN/ANNA AND THEIR FAMILY ISSUES AND THEIR DISMISSAL OF HEAVEN BECAUSE THEY HAVE EAARTH. <333

two things:
I came so close to not posting this, you have no idea, partially because soon I'm totally going to start getting pigeonholed as 'that chick who writes really crazy AU's and crossovers with Narnia'. and then I realized that I totally wouldn't mind and posted it anyways. :P
I have to admit, my absolute favorite part of that entire story was when Susan and Anna go time-travelinnnng back to the train-crash and Susan catches Peter and Edmund on their way in and introduces Anna and Peter rolls his eyes because he can't help but love Susan and her careless disregard for rules she doesn't think are necessary, and Edmund flirts with Anna for a bit and says something like, "Susan's or not, you are quite the looker," (I cannot remember the details!) and then Susan says she has to go and Peter and Edmund smile and nod and say that they understand and go into the station, and Susan and Anna leave before the train crashes.

[lassiterfics.livejournal.com]

The leaving before the train tugs all sorts of heartstrings, oh gosh. There's something of closure in that. Like, I dunno. Like this time Susan is ready for it.

EDMUND IS SUCH A CAD. I love it. Anna digs it. XD

[metonomia.livejournal.com]

OHMYGOD I LOVE YOU GUYS TOO MUCH. I need more of this.

[flyakate]

I was up for almost an extra hour last night reading tons of your Narnia fic and reveling in its awesomeness, so hope that is happy-making! Otherwise I prescribe cookies, lots and lots of cookies.

And, for the "story you never wrote" meme:

I loved "an orchestra of bones", Peter's story parallel to the Zombie!angst of "this temporary flesh and bone" because oh, Peter. Everyone thinks of him as being the brightness to balance Susan and Edmund, but even brightness needs the darkness and &hearts

[be-themoon.livejournal.com]

that is TOTALLY happy-making! <333 I hope you enjoyed it! lol, I made tapioca, which I suppose comes close enough and was pretty therapeutic to make. there is a lot of stirring.

(THAT'S NOT FAIR you do realize I'm going to have to write this someday now and I have no handle on Peter! none at all! ALSO OMG THAT TITLE OOOOH)

the thing that I <3333ed about this fic so much: the other side of it, because Edmund and Susan wandered around by themselves and kept apart because they're like that, but Peter has that hero complex and how he ended up in camp after camp, working with them and fixing things as best as he could. which ended up providing a really fabulous contrast in another, because Susan and Edmund were never really lonely for anyone but Peter and Lucy and they learned to live with that, but Peter was just entirely alone even though he had all these people around him and Jane kept hitting on him.

[zempasuchil.livejournal.com]

<3333 thank you!!! it is totally cool if you do not write something because honestly I could not write something either if someone had a birthday right now. life is crazy! and yours sounds pretty darn crazy! writing projects like crazy oh man! but go you for taking them on! that is brave. and I know you'll do great on your driving test! (ALSO. What is Pevensies/Winchester of Doom and HOW SOON CAN I FLAIL OVER IT OMG)

MEMETIEMS: HEY DUDE I loved that Winchester gen you wrote, it was dark but not hopeless!!, and there was ROADTRIPPING PRANK SHENANIGANS YES, and SWEET TUNES, and I just really liked them being BROTHERS. Oh and of course the lyrics shoutout of the title, "Surely heaven waits for me." it was JUST what I needed when i was worrying about them changing to be too different from each other in season 4!

[be-themoon.livejournal.com]

CRAAAAZY. <333 Pevensies/Winchesters of Doom is what used to be my apocabigbang before I got baffled by such things as Plot and Actual Length. I think it is probably somewhere around 3K of Pevensies and Winchesters hanging around in a snowbound house while the world falls to pieces outside, waiting for winter to end. it'll hopefully be edited and up by this weekend, but I've no idea actually.

god, after "Beat The Devil's Tattoo" I just couldn't leave it without doing something fun and sweet, and EVEN THAT WAS DARK WHAT SPN WHAT. Because, well, that's Sam and Dean for you. hopeless and wonderful and tangled and defined by their distances from the other. (also? I originally named it 'Gas Station Blues' or something cheesy like that, and then it got overtones of DOOOOOMED to it and I facepalmed and changed the title, all WHYYY.

[zempasuchil.livejournal.com]

Oh lord, Plot, I would avoid that for the rest of my life if I could. why do we even need plot. but it is really fun to read I guess :) I'm excited to read itttt! Two of my favorite loving ass-kicking dysfunctional families, together! eeee.

Gas Station Blues would be a great vignette. I just can't help but think of them as cowboys. Isn't that what modern roadtripping is, anyway? Going from job to job living out of your saddle, or car? They are such cowboys XD

[katakokk.livejournal.com]

Oh, Betsy. *hugs* I'm really sorry. I hope everything gets better! *offers love and support*

And, um, for the two memes!

(1) Revolutionverse? How's that coming along? I especially remember how you said Cedric/Holland popped up at one point, how did that happen?

(2) And I absolutely LOVED the Twilight-meets-Narnia you did, with Mary and the Pevensies and the fact that they just took her crazy background in stride. SO GREAT. <333

[be-themoon.livejournal.com]

it will, it will. it's just a bad day. <333 *hugs* thank youuu!

Revolutionsverse has been on temporary hold since NaNo, though I did some editing over Christmas break. It's on first draft for the first two books. And yeahhhh, there's totally Cedric/Holland. Adam dies between the first and second books and Holland moves to New Orleans to live with Cedric, and things happen. I'm not even sure. It's mostly subtextual at the moment, and I doubt it'll ever be more than that.

oh dear, that one. Apparently I just have to crossover EVERYHTHING with Narnia, it's like an addiction or something. I have to admit I was quite pleased with Lucy and Mary's interaction, and with Leah and Edmund's. What surprised me most was the predominant role Mary/Leah and Lucy took, and how very much in the background Susan was, which is always rare for me.

[rthstewart.livejournal.com]

I just adored All Dressed Up And Nowhere to Go when Edmund found Jack in that Dr. Who Star Wars Cantina and wrecked Jack's planned pick up and conquest for the evening by sauntering up, slapping Jack, and shouting, "You gave me a disease, you freak, that cannot be cured without full body irradiation." And then, Edmund punched Jack and said, "That's for Ianto." So awesome.

[be-themoon.livejournal.com]

I couldn't resist, upon turning it into a 'verse, to have Edmund meet Jack one last time. and, well. Jack DESERVES it. also, I'm pretty sure the Jack/Edmund was unintentional and mutated from the page or something.

line the first!
Upon further reflection, Edmund realized that, consciously or not, he had been looking for this opportunity for years.
line the last!
"He was a good person," Edmund says, quietly, pausing on his way out the door, and Jack looks up. There is no emotion in his eyes.
"He was," he says.
Edmund leaves.

(ohhh NOO now I'm going to have to add this to 'fics in the Edmund/Ianto 'verse that would like writing now please')

[rthstewart.livejournal.com]

All I can say is that if there is Jack/Edmund, Jack is left devastated and broken afterward and Edmund is all, see ya, had better, because Jack DESERVES it. Oh, and Edmund thinks Jack doesn't carry off that WW 2 look at all. In fact, how odd is it that the real Edmund from his younger days actually ran into Jack in that waterfront pub in Liverpool.

[lizzie-marie-23.livejournal.com]

I loved "Our Discontent" with Edmund and Sam both dreaming about the worlds they left behind. It's so cool that Edmund became a lawyer, it really seems to fit him. And the lines about "women I have dreamed of" was the most chilling thing I've read for a long time. Aww, Sam and Edmund just want their older brothers to take care of them, but they're in a different place. And the end when he looked out over the vista and it blurred in his mind whether he was looking at Narnia or England, I honestly didn't know if I should cry or be relieved for him.

[be-themoon.livejournal.com]

I was very, very proud of myself for not actually including any winter imagery in that entire fic, other than the hint in the title, because I seem to be unable to resist winter in Edmund-fic but I DID.

also, Edmund and Sam as the lost and almost abandoned younger brothers was just too perfect to pass up in my quest to cross over Narnia with everything AT LEAST once if not many times more. Especially SPN and Merlin and TW/DW. also Star Trek, someday...

and the scene that got cut? Edmund meets Dean, on accident one day, and wonders whether he should tell him that his brother misses him, or that life is too short for this sort of shit, or just good luck, and settles on good luck.

[lizzie-marie-23.livejournal.com]

I'll admit that I was surprised you managed to keep from using winter imagery, but it worked very well to just have that little hint.

I approve of this quest of yours! This was really quite beautiful and has gotten me even more hooked on Supernatural than I already was. Sam is so strong, even when he's really helpless, and Edmund really helps him with that.

This scene! That's so cool, why did you cut it?

[metonomia.livejournal.com]

HEHEHEHE.

I loved that fic whose name I can't remember in which Edmund and Ianto called in one Dr Daniel Jackson for a consultation on a strange form of alien writing that neither of them could identify. I think my favorite bit - how to choose! - was Edmund and Teal'c's discussion of betrayal and redemption. :)

Feel better, and good luck on your driving test!

[be-themoon.livejournal.com]

OHHHH dear. yeah, uh. I dunno, I can't resist crossing Narnia with absolutely everything? and Daniel really fit in well with Ianto and Edmund's boys club, with their archaeology and history and things that are beautiful. I have to admit, though I loved the Teal'c and Edmund discussion, it was so hard to write that I can't look at it without wincing now. My personal favorite was the scene where Edmund and Ianto are hilariously dismayed at Daniel's inability to keep things Properly Filed, because that scene was really, really easy to write. :P

[animus-wyrmis.livejournal.com]

I loooooved the conversation Edmund and Lucy have "Be the End of Days" concerning the apocalypse, and how you bring to light all the issues inherent in destroying a world, even if it is for something better, and how dead are they really?

<333333333 I hope things are all better

[be-themoon.livejournal.com]

There is something wrong about destroying a world, and I think Edmund is especially likely to see that (next to Susan). Edmund is more detached from the current Stepford reality. and ohhh man, Edmund experimenting with death in this country. that was really hard to write.

I think I have such trouble writing Stepford Heaven because it creeps me out sooo badly, but there is also this very delicate balance to hold in so many places. I think in this place, they are defined by absences. absence of pain, and fear, and Susan, and sorrow. and that's a really heartbreaking thing to be, really. I dunno. Stepford Heaven rattles me, badly.

[animus-wyrmis.livejournal.com]

Oh, absolutely! Your story actually reminded me a great deal of this one, with the slightly-off Heaven and the characters who both can and can't understand.

Yeah, that was hard to read too! It is difficult for me to see a character so curious abotu death but it brought into sharp focus the link death has to life, how you're not truly alive unless you can die, as Edmund says.

It is so strange to put SUsan in with those three, isn't it? Anyway, you definitely wrote a rattling sort of fic for it